I want to.. Take your hand in mine.. you know... intertwine our fingers, those.. giggles escaping my lips... as you smile down at your little girl..... I want our fingers to brush as they become unlocked then locked again as you twirl me underneath your arm as we dance beneath the starlit sky. I want to transend the normality and beauty of a relationship into something so much more, something only you and I could ever understand.... I want to be your lover.. if you allow me to fight for you....or more so the pleasure of being yours.. if you'd have me that is, Sir.

Funny, how.. things seem to happen when least expected.. or how.. people you opt to stay back from seem to be the closest to you and I never would have imagined it.....

it makes me smile sometimes but it also makes me sad.. that when I come to reality.. it probably is never going to be.. so why continue to play the games? but it's not a game... my heart is just.. so.. weird. I guess that's the only way to explain it...

I want to start feeling again..
I want to be someones..
know I am..
be collared
and loved..
be cherished
devoted
meows..

Today was a good day of laughter and giggles.. or beginnings and ends.. and I soon hope to add more the the feelings of mixture and desire and the reality that is mine...